Sobs...

Did i make de right choice in letting go of u?

all is not gg well for me at de moment... i'm someone who's trapped in de dark and cant find my way out. i'm lost.. all de things presented to me now is pileing up... mayb i'm jux addin unnecessary pressure to myself to force myself to complete things on time. but haiz. i cant take it anymore
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Never had tis feelin b4.. but tis wk, everythin is gg at 100km/hr for me!!! so upside down!!! too busy!!! arghh!!! but today... hahas. get to meet tutors who will b joinin xue hai family for yr 2008.. hahas. mostly gals. LOL. dun ask me y... only my boss noes tat. haha!!! but anw, THX sing ye for ur chocolate which u got for me... appreciate it a lot... and THX mei for gettin me those sweets and tis cute little pen from disneyland") my life is brightened up wif u around but wif this sweets, it'll make my life sweeter!! thx a million^^

Wats gg on???
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Oh dear Oh dear... most busy days in my life i guess... helpin out wif my boss in materials.... still not done yet.. and another thing, i found myself wif 5 e-mails to my name now!!! arghhh!!!! currently is sp and my own de... add another 3 is my work place de... LOL!!! too many mails=confusing.. but wat can i do except to adapt? hahas. very busy tis few days tats y not here to update my blog.. hahas. no time today too but jux feel like comin here and write somethin.. haha!! hmmm...

And to tutors who're reading my blog: MUZ COMMIT TO OCT AT LEAST!!!!!
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飞的越远越看不见 你阳光下灿烂的笑脸 在天跟海之间那条界线 慢慢的走远 你曾经是我的地平线 你有没有一点想念 我们一起去年的夏天 有种爱的感觉在心里面 那么的强烈 而这一切 好象只是昨天 我才发现我比想象中爱你 只是一时不小心错过了你 每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己 还是不可否认地 我比想象中爱你 兰花掠过沙滩变静 我又看见我们的脚印 如果遇见幸福的机率有千万分之一 不顾一切也要找回你 我才发现我比想象中爱你 只是一时不小心错过了你 每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己 总会从梦中惊醒 还是不可否认地 我比想象中爱你 终于发现我比想象中爱你 只是一时不小心错过了你 每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己 总会从梦中惊醒 还是不可否认地 我比想象中爱你
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An upside down life.
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OH DEAR OH DEAR... imagine Euro 2008 without England. England is out of Euro after losing 3-2 at hm to Croatia! credits to them after came bac from 2-0 down to 2-2 but a sudden lapse in concentration dealt dem de killer blow when Croatia struck wif 10 mins left on de clock.. de final score stand at 3-2 to Croatia. dere's still a hope for England but fate is not in their hand. over at Andorra. Russia is leading 1-0 wif 3 mins left.. Tis is de scenario- England lost so dey hold onto 2nd placing in de group wif 23 pts. But if Russia win de match at Andorra, dey'll leapfrog England and get 24 pts, 1 pt more den England to qualify for Euro 2008. When de match is over, England fans r prayin for a miracle to happen but their hopes were dashed when de final whistle blew at Andorra. Russia 1 Andorra 0. Russia r thru.. No offense to Russia but i cant come to de fact tat Russia will b better den England.. mayb it's bcuz of de fact tat i've been watchin english league in action since young tats y i make such a 1 sided remark... but still... WASTE MY ENERGY AND SLEEP OF WAKIN UP AT 3 JUX TO WATCH ENGLAND CRASH OUT!! cant possibly went bac to slp now... gonna prepare for sch later. lesson at 8-10. i dun mind a bit since it's my fav module. GEM- love relations for life^^ after lesson will go straight to xue hai(clementi) and take flyers and proceed to clementi pri to target de kids.. work from 1130 till 2...

big day today for all p6 kids. hahas. so much about those tough maths qns towards de end.. every yr dere'll b parents complainin bout how tough math qn r.. but i believe wat my boss say is right. "these few r de killer qns tat differentiate de outstandin from de normal ones" imagine without these qns and Singapore kids scorin high high... den wats de use of de moderation? hahas. and 1 laz thing, without these killer qn, will students wanna come tuition? i leave de ans to everyone who's readin my blog. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Yayness!!! MST over!! yea!!! laz paper today. maths. my fav subj... it's a breeze to me but still i lost 10 marks on 1 qn. implicit differentiation. i forget to revise on tat! arghh!!! but still... glad tat it's over... now prayin for gd GPAs. hahas. time to relax a bit... actualli i've been relaxin regardless whether dere's exam or not.. not even O lvl laz yr is a motivation for me to study. guess i no hope liao. LOL! hmm... at hm now... very guai. came hm straight after my exams, didnt went out to celebrate wif my frens... gg to work later from 6 to 9... dere's sch tmr... GEMS. i simply love my GEMS. how i wish it's a 3 yr long module. but oh well.. it's only 1 semester long.. i muz score perfect GPA for my GEMS!! gg to give out flyers outside clementi pri tmr.. targettin those p6 kids takin bac their psle results.. hahas. tmr dere'll b many ppl stationin outside west area pri schs. all xue hai ppl. haha!!! fri no sch.. but i promise myboss tat i'll b helpin him to work de whole day... same thing for sat and sun.. oh well.... work work and work... tats my life....
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laz paper to go!! yeah!! finally for a breather or possible for me to hav 1? hmm... today's paper was tough!! i'll b satisfied to manage a pass... so low rite i set de standards for myself? but bo bian... tats me. but math i gonna aim high high. distinction!!! hahas.. nth much happens today.. went nikon(did i spell correctly) wif my 2 best buddy to hav our lunch at 4 after our exams at jurong west sports complex. laz an hr in dere but we ate our filll, full! went hm after tat, got ready and went to xue hai at 6.. parents start to flow in... shootin qn here and dere but thx to my VP and PROFs to help me in times^^ off from work at 940... first thing i came hm is laptop.. tats my daily routine every nite. LOL! scoutin for tutors todays.. fierce fierce adverstisin")") psle results releasin tis thu.. those kids under me, wish u well!!! all de best^^ love ya!!
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So tats mon yesterday.. had my EEE paper.. woo!! laz min revision works!! but i didnt rmb clearly de eqn for sinosuidal wave and i lose marks in tat. arghh!!! shldnt b a problem wif pass but to get B? hmm... need some lady luck... went xue hai yesterday to do revision on my weakest subj- DE but but... aiyo.. still dun really understand... and we went dere around midnite initially wanna study overnite but de place is too comfortable to slp and almost everyone fell asleep so we might as well went hm.. got hm at 3 plus and i slept till 8... *yawn* tired.... today's DE 100% chop chop gone case... sian half... gg xue hai later today at nite....
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Went xue hai tis 2 days.. to sort out de final phase of a big project.. still on course but not enough manpower to complete de proj on time. muz rush but i havin exams next wk!!! SOS! ! ! so tats about work... after exams i'm gg dere to work oso.. tryin to squeeze out time to complete my work... hmm... havent really studied for MST. sure cannot make it. i always laz min!! ahas. yea. finally had a chance to catch scv at hm le!! yeayea. so glad^^

nth much really happens tis few days. it's work and sch work and sch... money drainin quite fast tis few days. muz save le!!

can anybody tell me y? if i can only b kept busy every min every sec...

霎那间爱情不盼也不再鲜艳我们等不到花盛开的季节我还不了解你说的抱歉是对不起我或甜蜜的从前亮的天在我想你转眼变黑夜我是来不及回家的麻雀绕一圈一圈沿着你的脸希望天黑以前飞出想念
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had sch till 12 yesterday.. install de latest FM08!! hahas. after tat came hm a while and went to jp lib wif jun kiat.. study for a while but fall asleep on de nice sofa LOL! went to je entertainment centre at nite to do my nabo card!! hahas. i've to buy a new tapz card in order to hav tat nabo card. cost me 50 bucks in total.. met my sec sch fren for de first time after many mths.. hahas. overall... not bad^^ gg xue hai later...
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woot... went to sch from 8 to 10 today. only for GEMS. hahas. our lesson today is de most interestin so far.. received our proj work assignment-30%. tis wk is wk 8. de deadline is wk 15. hahas. still some time^^

came hm after tat.. went to slp.. everytime i came hm, i'll go to slp.. dunno y. guess i've not had enough slp over de past few mths. or i shld say after i got tis laptop. hehe.

went out wif my parents to JP jux now.. yeah. i persuade my parents to install scv le!! hurray!!! hahas. no more illegal viewin on de net. i can watch on scv next time^^ and tis promotion oso come wif a free samsung tv. haha!!! worth it^^ mthly subscription fee of 67... quite expensive... after tat treat my family to crystal jade... cost me around 80 bucks... went sportslink after tat.. bought myself a slipper and a shirt and a water bottle for my brother. cost me around 70 plus in total.. i spend a lot today!!! time to save! hahas.

to summarise.. i'm super elated to hav an SCV.. finally... next target--> N95 or W910i")
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Woot!!! thx U for today^^ i appreciate it a lot a lot^^

我已爱上黑糖玛奇朵。。。

finally, i've learnt to move on..

要得到一些东西，就得失去一些。。。Now i get wat tis sentence means...

i like busy life... new term gonna start at xue hai.. lookin forward to return to my position agn!! but tis time.. i'll b spendin more time in clementi den jurong accordin to myboss.. ^^
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WHO WANNA B A TUTOR OR ADMIN???

HELP ME ASK AROUND TOO. THX EVERYONE^^
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hmm.. today b4 i reached sch at 8.. i's feelin so nervous. thought i sure cant make it for CAD test. but after i got de test paper, it's not so difficult afterall... i didnt manage to complete de test thou. those red lines, didnt draw. and limits, dunno whether i've set correctly or not.. but my drawin is perfect!! hahas. shld hav at least a pass ba? after tat got bac my CRS from my fren. ask him to print for me. thx edmund. and after CAD at 10 shld b CRS from 10-12 but de lecturer didnt come so lesson cancel.. hmm.. have to wait 3 hrs b4 de next lesson start at 1 so i might as well went hm and i did. gave my admin card to my fren to help me tap attendence. i'm so bad. LOL. reached hm around 1130 hav brunch and slept all de way till now.. so here i m.. gg out later.. to The Cathay to watch Beowulfs at 720.... *roar* i can shout tmr agn!! Yeah^^
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Woo!! a grat day for me today... end sch at 12... didnt hav IDEAS lesson as our lecturer is absent agn. hahas. came hm right after sch and slp till 3... jun kiat call and we went to watch movie at jp. first movie is STARDUST at 345. de movie was great. it captures my heart^^ ends around 6.. went to crystal jade to hav my dinner. ordered abalone porridge and si chuan soup. o.O it was damn spicy la. hahas. after tat went to watch another movie, GAMEPLAN at 7.. tis movie was yet another great movie and quite touchin too.. hmm... feel like watchin both movie agn.. oh well.. movie marathon for me today... jux reached hm and here i m.. tmr gonna catch a movie agn. beowulfs. jun kiat got free tics for 4 at The Cathay.. cool la.. hahas. tis wk's gonna b A great wk LOL. lookin forward to tmr, weds and fri^^
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In sch now... zzz.. tired. slept around 130 yesterday and woke up early today. reached sch and got an A-cash card for free LOL. my classmates's sis gave him a lot for free LOL. mayb can b used for audition.. hahas. or who wan it? i can consider givin to tat person^^ hmm... got lesson till 3 today but dere's a meetin for SP primers interested for sharity gift box members at 730... shld b gg for it... tats all.. Yawn**
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hmm... busy busy today... didnt hav clementi key to enter xue hai so hav to wait for mr fok to arrive at jurong and pass me his. start work around 11.. today was simple.. my sis prepare materials while me call up those interested to b a tutor.. called around 30 plus 40.. yet to find power power de. but anw, who wanna b a tutor jux leave a msg in de tagbox. i'll reply u all")")
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Yawn... went xue hai today from 10 to 430. reached dere early around 930 cuz i's told dere's a class at 10 but in de end no one turns up.... same thing agn.. prepare materials. standin in front of tat photocopier. haha. took 99 hm after work.. reached hm around 530.... serve de net for a while, hav my dinner and went to slp at 6 plus... woke up around 9 plus and here i m. hahas. received sms from my boss. gotta work tmr at clementi agn.. from 10 to 6... yawn...

my frens cant believe it but wat can i say? Love is blind... i'm willin to sacrifice anythin for LOVE
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went to sch from 8 to 12 today... hmm... after tat meet jun kiat up and we intend to go jp play pool but how we noe de price increased from de actual 3.80/hr to 7.80/hr!! omg. den we give up de thought of playin pool at jp and decided to went bac to jp agn. but my trip to jp was not wasted. hahas. i bought a thumbdrive for 30plus.. cool.. went to je play pool from 1230 to 130. ahas. onli cost us $6.10. went kbox after tat wif jk. he's de onli guy tat always pei me to wherever i wan go. thx jun kiat. i really appreciate it") durin de first hr, we actualli slept inside!! hahas. after tat jk play his psp while me, its time for me to shout all i wan. but i didnt really shout. i sing!! hahas. not bad for me... hmm... i sang continously from 3 plus to 6 plus... feel better after singin and losin my voice.. cuz i sang veri loud. arghhh... i wan to 发泄!!!! after tat its mj agn... my life is always revolvin around tis few things.. haiz. i'm lifeless... tats me... reached hm around 11 plus... didnt go for xiao zhu concert tics signature today but nvm, i can c him in person durin dec 1. yeah")") i love xiao zhu^^

it tAkes time. but wif u, i can do it...

kbox... those usual songs i sang- 嫁给我，断点，西界，不能说的秘密，无可救药，我可以，童话，第一次，约定，握你的手，love story and a few of TANK's songs, fahraheit de...


didnt managed to hear and sing 麻雀，第一次爱的人，恋爱频率 ，梁山伯与朱丽叶，爱的主旋律，明明很爱你 and many more...

i missed those days.. sang mostly guy's song. all emo emo de. i like emo songs. dun ask me y...

IF ONLY DERE'S A RESET BUTTON...
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lookin forward to next fri^^
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There are times when I cant decidewhether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do,the fact that you dont see me the waythat I see you hurts me even more ...
The weirdest thing happened the other morning...I woke up with tears in my eyes...and one rolling down my cheek...and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.
I'm not supposed to love you,I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do, I'm sorry I can't help myself,I'm in love with you.
You're not worth the tears,you're not worth the heartache.I don't know why I give you the time.You're not worth the pain, you're not worth the emptiness. I don't know why I wish you were mine.
I'm sorry for crying over you, because I said I wouldn't.But I didn't promise you that, because I knew it would be a promiseI would never be able to keep.
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
Nothing hurts more than realising he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.
Love is a precious gift that people try to hold onto until the end of time,even when there is nothing left to hold.
You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.True love is when you have to watch a friend leave, with the knowledge that you might never see him again. But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever...Love starts with a smile, Grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

I had a dream and it was about you ... I smiled and recalled the memories we had ... then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why? Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

Oftentimes we say goodbye to theperson we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
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每当我不开心时，我都会用 mj 来麻醉自己。。。 但是，一旦 mj 完后，我又会想起所发生的

时间会是一种解药吗??
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lesson at 10 later but i'm awake now... slept at 8 yesterday. for a total of 10hrs! first time in as many days i've since slept for so long... but dere's still more days to come. i'm gonna change my slpin habits, no more turnin in late! as usual, gg sch from 10 to 1130 after tat shld b comin hm either to slp or study. lifeless me, besides sleepin, i wonder wat can i do. hhaas.

it's been a tough day for me yesterday. mentally and physically. i'm worn out. but thx to my pal, u're dere to lift me up when i'm at my most down. let all tis b part of my memories thruout my growin up process ba...

我的爱已融化在空气里
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我吻过你的脸,你双手曾在我的双肩,感觉有那么甜我那么依恋.每当我闭上眼,我总是可以看见,失信的诺言全部都会实现. 我吻过你的脸,你已经不在我的身边,我还是祝福你过得好一点.断开的感情线,我不要做断点,只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言.

In de end, i lose both plots

All i nid, is a Gd long slp... ... And nvr wake up to face de reality in tis world

Everyone has a choice. And perhaps i made de wrong one from de start?
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Yayness!! in sch now but CADD teacher told us test postponed to next wk! hahas. cuz he havent teach us somethin in design centre yet") Yeah") means more time for me to study. hahas. if de test is today, it'll b a sure fail for me. hahas. muz study now") got lesson till 5 today. sian. long day in sch. gg hm after tat. shld b no activity or work after sch. gonna rest at hm. MST comin. time to pia!!

shld blog agn when somethin came to my mind")

if u're readin tis, i wanna let u noe. Leave de past behind, it's time to move on. dun let urself indulge in a sea of worries. whatever decision u make, i'm always behind u")

Memories of yesterday. live for today. hope for tomorrow.
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went bac to sch today after slackin at hm for de whole of laz wk. lesson initially from 8-12 and 1-3 but when i reached sch, got news from my chairman tat 1-3 IDEAS lesson cancel. hmm... SP is runnin out of money! hahas. when i's takin lift from de first floor to de sixth, i find out tat de lift is workin but dere's no light at all! when i step inside de lift and when de door close up, it's completely dark! ok, i'm a man. i'm not afraid of de dark. haha!! but de problem is not solved even after my lesson at 12. ZZZ. hahas. went hm after tat. reached hm around 12. used laptop for a while and cant make it jiu went to slp. all de way till 4 plus.. havin my dinner now.. hahas. gg xue hai(jurong) later wif my sis.. helpin out wif materials agn") hmm... dere's autocad test tmr. sian half! 20%. OMG la. luckily it's open book. but i feel dere isnt much use. LOL. hmm... nth much happen today. shld blog agn soon...
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ZzZzZz... sch reopenin tmr. cant ZzZz till late late.. gonna prepare for MST soon. first paper on 19/11 i tink. EEE follow by DE and lastly, Engineering math. hahas. hmm... agn de same thing. went xue hai( clementi ) early in de morning today wif my sis.. all de way till around 5 plus, prepare materials!! went hm after tat... gonna Zzz early tonite. argh!! i'm bcumin a panda. sad sad... No more audi. No more FM. Not gg to bring laptop to sch tmr. save myself from temptations. hahas. turnin over a new leave. i dun wan to b retain when i'm onli in poly for de first yr.

R u tinkin wat i'm tinkin?

thx, u're rite. worryin will get me to no where so we hav to trust our own abilities. that is when we maximise our own potential. and everyone has de ability to do well and it is all in de mindset we hav. Well said. thx for ur advise")
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sian sian.. dunno tat singaporeans r so mad about jay zhou. i thought i'm gg to b de early few to buy his concert tics but when i went online to check jux now, onli left single seats for both days, 18th and 19th jan! wth!! arghh!! nevertheless, i'm gg to try my luck agn when i went to sistic outlet. *^pray pray^*
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hmm... didnt blog for de past few days. shld post somethin now. hahas. nth muc happen durin de past few days. it's xue hai as usual. hahas. tuitions end for de mth of nov but not admin work. i hav plenty work to do over de mth of nov. prepare materials!! marketin and advertisin!! arghh!!

hmm... complete almost all my e-learnin work. done wif CRS comments and essays. Autocad thx bon for helpin me to settle it. IDEAS my fren say he'll solo. GEMS no stranger for me to talk to. who wanna b tat stranger? haha!! left wif maths tutorial and mst papers i guess? hmm...

feel a sense of achievement over somethin... i'm glad u like it. hahas.
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i'm feelin so high rite now. after hearin supposedly a gd news from my boss. Yeah")"):)
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hmm... nth much happen today.. as i mentioned, de whole of e-learnin wk is either for me to study or slp at hm... and i done both today!!! hahas. done wif my CRS. IDEAS my fren will b doin tmr. for math, my group members say onli nid to b handed in on jan 2008? i dunno LOL? and dere's GEMS. 150 words, reflect on ur experience when chatting wif a stranger online. 30% of de overall... and lazly dere's Autocadd which i dun feel like doin. i dunno dere's hmwk for autocadd till my fren told me tat out qn is posted in BB. ahas. nvm. i shall leave it till de laz day den i do.... time flies. tmr is fri le!! sch reopenin soon. hahas.

got info tat dere's jay concert next yr on 18th and 19th jan. de actual performance is on 19th jan which is oso jay's b'day but due to overwhelmin tickets response, de tics r mostly sold out. 80% od de tickets r sold within a DAY when his concert tics r up for grabs laz wk. i's like *gasp* so fast... luckily, sistic has decided to open another slot on 18th which is a fri. sian. cant buy tics for his actual date, onli left single slots.. but nvm. i'll make do wif 18th.. gonna buy de tics soon. probably tis wk or next wk in case de tics sold out agn.. hahas. Cat C cost 138bucks but dere's 10% discount for starhub members!>< heez... after Xiao Zhu concert on dec 1 will b Jay next!!! hhaas. so lookin forward to both of their concert")")")

so much for concert.. hmm... gg xue hai(jurong) at 7 to 9.... get info from boss tat dere's a class later so i nid to b dere. hahas... ^Confidence is de key^ nvr give up. persevere and u'll succeed!!! 天下无难事，只怕有心人
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